Bitter.

I’ve been thinking a lot about bitterness. I’ve been through seasons that left me bitter. I know you have, too. Sometimes, the season is fleeting. Other times, it becomes a fog that just won’t seem to lift even after the morning sun rises and dries up everything else. I spend most of my days talking… Continue reading Bitter.

Halfway

I scrubbed at the sticky smudge on my screen, annoyed that gloop was gunking up my phone and occluding my gaze. I tried to tally how many popsicles Grey had consumed so far this summer – and how many drips had dropped on all of my things. He and I have been having weekly dates… Continue reading Halfway

Let It Shine

My eyes fluttered open, taking inventory of the things around me. It was still dark and all was quiet. What had awakened me was a scent wafting from another room. I should not have been smelling this particular scent at this time. Once the heaviness of deep sleep allowed me to rise, I bolted into… Continue reading Let It Shine

Next

Congratulations to the class of 2035! Yall, Grey had his preschool graduation, and this was on the last page of a scrapbook his teachers made for him. I’m not crying; you’re crying. All over town there are yard signs indicating students graduating from high school and college. It’s hard not to be reminded of my… Continue reading Next

Hold On

I looked down at my 6 lb 9 oz baby and was overcome with joy. The baby that we had prayed over and planned for was finally here. As I gazed into his blue eyes, a thought crossed my mind. “What if you accidentally drop him?” This caused me to hug him tighter. “What if… Continue reading Hold On

Better Berries

We walked along the worn path, beaten into a visible line by our beloved cows making their daily rounds over the land. We were taking in the warm sunshine and looking for leaves, bugs, and fish around the pond. There's a magical place behind the water where Grey likes to go "exploring". This day, he… Continue reading Better Berries

Re:

I hit send on yet another email, re: in the title. A quick Google search informs us that the letters re mean “in the matter of; about; concerning”. It is often used alone, as in email. But is also used as a prefix where it means “once more; afresh; anew; in return; or with negative… Continue reading Re:

Dollar Store Distractions

Yall. Grey has a new obsession – Dollar General. If you’ve noticed I haven’t posted anything lately, it’s because I have been running ragged between work, kids, birthdays, and …many trips to Dollar General. With my toddlers in tow, we run in, grab what we need, and inevitably wind up on the toy aisle. We… Continue reading Dollar Store Distractions

Lost in Translation

I couldn’t make the words make sense. I racked my brain trying to conjure another solution. She was crying and in obvious pain, but my long-forgotten Spanish failed to bridge the language barrier. We clumsily communicated in single words and lots of “Ummm” and “How do you say…” I made pictures with words and translations.… Continue reading Lost in Translation

It’s fine. I’m fine. Everything’s fine.

With the candles blown out and tucked away in the draw until next year’s birthday, I set about my evening routine before bed. Only this time, I noticed the faintest wrinkle as I removed my carefully placed makeup. I let go of my initial urge to panic and spiral into the waning youthfulness of my… Continue reading It’s fine. I’m fine. Everything’s fine.